Learning to trust myself was a major process, fraught with ups and downs and doubts and fear.
I had never trusted myself and most of my life was spent trying to force myself to believe that everything was okay. When I couldn’t make a decision, I just stayed where I was: I was afraid I would make the wrong one.
Even after my intuition reawakened, I doubted myself. I could see the paths and decisions that would help others, but I could rarely see what would best support me.
I was living outside of my body, I was overwhelmed and confused, and I stayed small so that I wouldn’t have to make decisions that might create a sense of failure or pain in me. And as a result of this, I was allowing others to have dominion over my mood, my actions and my sense of self-worth. It was easier to let life lead me than it was to actively co-create my reality.
Everything had always taught me to not trust what I was feeling and to override what my body was telling me. I played soccer on sprained ankles and I cartwheeled on hurt wrists; crying was a sign of weakness and anger was to be suppressed. I could sense the emotions that everyone else was feeling ~ anger, sadness, anxiety ~ but I would always hear that they were “fine” or “good.” Hide, hide, hide who you truly are was the message all around me…And it confused me and taught me that what I was feeling must have been wrong…
I know this to be true about a lot of people that I work with as well…the inability to trust ourselves and our intuition is a product of years of denying the reality of our situation, feelings, life in general…
And it can be hard to come back from this…It can feel unstable and uncertain. It can be really difficult to move through the conditioning and doubt.
Learning to go back within…to access the wisdom of my body and my higher self changed everything for me. I’m able to intuitively handle situations that used to be stressful and overwhelming for me. I can make decisions that feel aligned and good to me. I TRUST that I’m taking care of my needs and I feel safer as a result.
And my psychic abilities soared as I began to trust my inner wisdom; it’s like having an internal system of checks and balances and so as I receive information from my upper chakras (Third Eye and Crown), I feel the insights land in my body more strongly and I’m able to better navigate the subtleties of what I’m perceiving.
A huge part of my healing journey was this key aspect of finally trusting myself. I still had to navigate trauma and stress and chronic symptoms, but the more connected I became to my inner voice, the more substantiated and grounded I became in the rest. I learned how to BE fully in my body and to listen to its rhythms, likes and desires. I also began to acknowledge, feel and respect its no’s…
My inner voice always guides me with heart and the interest of my best and highest good…And accessing and trusting that is a pure treasure that never leads me astray.
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